like confused about all the stuff i heard about sa
many shit going on with people - im also angry a bit because it seems some people have flatly deceived themselves
like what the fok have they been doing?
also im like the only one holding back with my father atm - i have fuck all to say to my mother
she is just messing around deceiving everyone doing self forgiveness
i have still pains going on in my intestins
people go - oh why should i even stop my mind?
wtf is even wrong with it?
people speak fokking cheap and easy words - real hero's but doing NOTHING
oh my little world !
oh i will lose thius or this ! - oh someone got angry with me- i cannot take it - oh let me sit here in self pitty in my PIT of PITTY where i spit on myself
i rather NOT exist than have a glimse of what it is to LIVE - I rather smile than cry the dirt out of my SElf - i rather look ok than to break down and others see i AM NOT EVEN REAL
what will it TAKE ? - what will it take for all to see you are NOT REAL ? WILL YOU WAIT UNTILL YOU ARE FOKKING DEAD? WILL YOU STAND UP IN THE DIMENSIONS ? OH I RATHER DO FOKKING NOTHING AND JUST FOKKING OBSERVE !!!!!!
WHAT A FOKKING DISGRACE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to all those who dont even bother - FOK YOU - GO MASTURBATE IN YOUR DREAMWORLD