Thursday, December 30, 2010

Wrong answer!

So a couple of weeks ago I was attending the last class this semester for the course 'European law' which is quite an interesting subject and I am glad that I am able to once a week attend this particular class - because I can manage to get there on tuesday evenings right after work.

The point of my clothing would play out here as well - since i would enter the room and in my perception draw some attention due to how I was clothed (suit and tie), which I wondered if they might believe that I am wearing this to please the professor - while for me this was more a point of differentiating msyelf from the students and demonstrate that I am working and generating a stable income and thus that i am superior to everyone in the room - even to the professor because I manage to attend his class after a whole journey of work.

So - quite a fuck up right there.

That in itself was also enrgetically connected, because there was a girl always at the front rows as well whom I would be looking out for because I spoke to her once and because on some occasions I had imagined that she fancied me due to my clothes and my shaved head etc... I was obviously aware of this point, though i had not written this out effectively, which caused me to cycle within this experience.

thus I write specifically from the startingpoint of clearing myself from energetic possessions by calling a spade a spade; and stopping the enslavement towards the energy.

I had a significant reaction the last lesson I attended: the professor was giving examples of questions that had been used in last years exam and everyone was busy taking notes. He would ask the audience what the answer was to this or that particular question and ask fot a raise of hands, as these were simple yes/no questions. At one point he asked a question and I ostensively nodded with my head to make sure everyone would see that I thought the answer to this question was 'yes' - while he then revealed the actual answer was no - lol. I had an actual shame/embarrasment reaction towards this, which is quite interesting because i had not been in such a situation since my time at university 3 years ago.

This is interesting in itself since i am currently busy with an SRA assignment where we are taking apart a mind construct that heavily revolves around 'being seen as intelligent'/'having the right answer' and 'fear of giving the wrong answer'.

I am still in the process of taking that apart - so what I can say thus far: in this context my reaction was actual fear of being seen as stupid - which immediately revealed the extend to which I was acting out of ego. So - when the fear kicked in I supported myself with breathing untill it dissipated, but obviously I was now experiencing the outflows of my actions based in superiority - which now balanced out in inferiority.

So - another example of how one can be enslaved by a polarity system of the mind and remain trapped within it - unless one lay out the whole pattern that is playing out and correct oneself in practical living.

After having done some writing yesterday - I went for a long walk in the evening which I enjoyed extensively as I noticed I was having no energetic reactions whatsoever to woman or girls that crossed my path, as I walked and remained within breath - as if there had been ties cut loose which was quite a freeing experience - so that was cool immediate feedback on the effectiveness of my writing of that day.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Looking at a Dream

Tonight I had a dream where I am walking around in a shoppingmall-like place to try some clothes (or somehting), and at one point i notice I lost my jacket (the one I mentionned in my post above) which makes me even more nervous in the dream when i realise my wallet is still in the jacket as well. I am about to voice this fear to someone though at that point I realize I created the whole point myself and I decide to not speak and that evenutally I will find my jacket.

At one point I am asking a girl (who works in the shop/place?) to go and look inside a large sportsroom that is full of girls doing sports and where i am not allowed to enter. Eventually I arrive at the entrance of the room myself and I find my jacket hanging somewhere, and I assume the girl must have left it there for me. Then I go into a point of spying into the room because I want to check what the girls are doing and there is an obvious energetic point within that spying that I would say is sex-related.

The spying actually happens as I wait for the 'elevator' which is actually a tramway that is comming up in a staircase-like system, where the stairs have been replaced with rails - so it's like a justification point where it's ok for me to participate in the energy because I'm in an 'in between moment', waiting for the tramway-elevator anyways and 'it just happens that i see these girls' (while in the dream I actually placed myself lying down on top of some structure to get a better sight). The whole place is a bit like a cave inside because of the rough and whobbly texture of the floor upon which the rails are set, and eventually the tram arrive and I either get in or I don't but I remember clearly that i was determined to take the tram but the dream ends there.

So – a clear element is the tramway, because I do in fact take a tramway every day when I go to work. And a point with regards to the tramway I have in real life is where I will doubt whether I will take the tramway or walk to my work (which is only 15 minutes). The considerations I have is: if I walk then I am having a little bit of physical movement, which is good for at least not gaining more weight given that I’m not doing any sports or anything anymore. However with the bad weather it may damage my shoes which cost money and I may then have to buy new ones. Another more neutral consideration is that if it is really cold, I will simply prefer not walking and taking the tramway.

Then inside the tramway there are always many woman/girls where I do have this point of glancing at woman/girls – and the point of my physical appearance comes up prominently and also in relation to the clothes I wear, my tie, my shoes, etc. (And also my cap and the worry that I will be seen as ridiculous with that kind of cap together with the kind of clothes I am wearing). For instance there will be another guy with a suit and a tie waiting for the tram as well and I always have this judgment of: “why can’t he take a car – he’s probably greedy!”. I also have a judgment towards him where I tell myself that I look better than him – lol, because fascinating: because he’s the only guy waiting on the tram with a suit and a tie together with me, while all the rest are more ‘randomly clothed’ and most of them are 12 to 16 year old and simply go to school – I see him as being in competition with me. Competition with regards to our clothes and how ‘elite’ we look: “Damn, he looks more classy than me because I am wearing this cap and he’s actually wearing an expensive hat.” So, to compensate this I tell myself: “Yeah, but he’s more ugly than me !!!!!!”

So – clearly an obsession with wanting to impress woman and younger girls specifically with my clothes and the way I look and wanting to radiate success and stable income.

The fact that in my dream the tramway is actually representing the elevator that comes up in a staircase-like structure – also points towards the elevator I take daily at work. With regards to the elevator I have this questioning of: “should I take the elevator down or should I take the stairs?” (because my work office is at the 10th floor of a building) Here again the ‘reason why’ is that taking the stairs is good because then I have a minimum of physical movement that is good for not gaining weight.

While I’m writing about the elevator I might just as well add this point: in the legal department of the company where I work they have acquired a new person to work there, a woman. The point with her is that she is ‘beautiful looking’, where she has for instance ‘very long smooth hair’ and ‘beautifull eyes’, a skinny face and... big breasts. So once I was waiting for the elevator and she entered the hall as well and I saw she was coming for the elevator as well while I was already inside and ready to go up – so I stopped the doors from closing and she entered the elevator as well. When our eyes met she immediately looked down – which I experienced as strange and it seems I took it personally, as if I am a criminal or an abuser. This point I kept experiencing of her having her reservations about talking to me or looking at me – which I can see now why I reacted, because I did in fact have an energetic experience towards her.

So – this was my dream thus far and what it brought up.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Interesting feedback

So at work I was having an update meeting some weeks ago with my boss where we discuss my results and we talk about where I am not yet fully effective and where I should improve and what I should consider.

At one point he was explaing to me how one can make sure that you went all the way to close a deal. He said if at a certain stage of the conversation the person chooses to not take your offer and they are not pissed off with you, then you didn't go all the way. If on the other hand you go to such an extent that the person on the other end of the line gets angry and smashes down the phone - then you know you went all the way.

He said: many people have issues with doing this - do you know why?

I said: I guess because they fear being seen as 'bad' and doing somehting 'wrong'.

He said: look at the words you are now using... the day you can go there and don't see yourself as 'bad' or doing somehting 'wrong' - then you will become the most effective possible salesman.

So - this was cool feedback from my boss, where he's basically saying: "fuck morality" and encouraging me to be more ruthless in the system.

So, I highly recommend doing sales to anyone having issues with morality and good and bad - because you will certainly be challenged and also your communication skills will improve extensively.

Monday, December 27, 2010

One vlog a day keeps the docters away

So - since a while I have been doing vlogs much more regularly ad I have noticed some cool points that opened up.

First of all I really enjoy doing vlogs and what really assisted me is to make vlogs in relation to entertainment such as series, because i noticed I am able to make much more vlogs this way.

Where I used to 'wait' untill an insight/perspective opened up before I would decide to make a vlog, I now direct myself to make vlogs regardless of any special insight -and what I found is that insight will actually open up as I push myself to make vlogs, which is the reverse of what I expected.

So - that's all I have to share about this point.


Sunday, December 26, 2010


So yesterday evening I did an Osho card reading to check why my left pinky was twitching so much and because I had now established that it was not due te ineffective breathing.

Points that revealed:
1. innosence as core issue

With on top of that 'guidance' and 'who I am' wthin the issue was 'control' - which correlated with the pains in both my upper arms

So I did some self-forgiveness based on what came up in that moment - though this morning I see I may have rushed into an idea and missed the point of what the reading is atually signifying...

2. what I attract from the outside = the 'existence' card (not sure what this stands for and I deliberately did not go and read the booklet because of how I abused this very point in the past and I decided to stick to what I can immediately see)

3. Desires/denials: 'creativity'
Normally this card had always represented 'work' - though I consider the work issue to be sorted out sufficiently, so to me it represents creativity and expression because I noticed how I had thoughts/desires when seeing or listening to other peoples songs for instance and I decided I cannot go there (as in creaing a song myself for instance) because I have no time or because I have no right to that

Yet I am unsure if this is a plain denial or if I am to approach the point as a desire - I'll see...

More posts to come...

Saturday, June 19, 2010

The Origin of Present-Day Inequality

When looking at the world of today and looking at the differences that exist between Human beings on earth, one could ask if there is a particular reason as to why a specific ‘race’ or ‘country’ or ‘continent’ ended up holding a more favorable position of ‘power’ in comparison to other ‘races’, ‘countries’, or ‘continents’.

Where through economic principles of debt, entire Nations have ended up being enslaved to western creditors with no way out.

Where entire populations are left to starve without regard from the Western countries.

Where one half of the world is actually working to feed the other half that live in better conditions and enjoy more wealth, health and better education.

Was there a pre-programmed advantage involved? And if so – did it have anything to do with the Human?

Since the times when ‘modern civilization’ came into contact with the ‘forgotten parts’ of the world, the west was faced with a peculiar question: how come populations such as the Aboriginals in Australia had virtually made ‘no progress’ since the Stone-Age?

People of ‘Modern civilization’ saw themselves as superior in knowledge, science and culture – giving them a ‘Divine Right’ to either exterminate, convert or enslave the indigenous populations. Ultimately the reason as to why one part of the world came to hold the more fortunate position is then attributed to the particular evolution of knowledge, science and technology within that society.

This is how history is being taught in schools and how it is recorded in the history books. History books will typically emphasize the superiority of the West in terms of philosophy, religion, science and technology, and they will meticulously trace the ‘evolutions’ thereof. Within that, the core belief of the Western world is reinforced - that knowledge is the actual drive of ‘evolution’, ‘change’ and ‘progress’. Recent historical research has uncovered that this is not so. In fact, the role of knowledge, science, technology, religion and even culture in itself are quite irrelevant factors in the journey of Humanity that has resulted in the extreme inequalities that we witness today.

So, then what are the relevant factors?

The biggest factors that have in fact determined the inequality between and within Human societies of today, are Plants, Animals and Germs.

To place this into perspective we will consider the startingpoint of when – according to the historical record - ‘Human civilization’ started. This is said to be between 13 000 and 10 000 years ago, which is after the beginning of a new climate cycle on earth – where it basically became warmer on earth from that point onwards. (With 'Human Civilization' I refer to a new type of 'living together', thus I'm not talking about the beginning of Humans 'living together' as such, which existed much earlier.)

If we look at the basics of Human Life on earth, we can ask: what do Humans primarily require to be able to exist?

According to ‘standard archeological research’, Human Beings had typically been living as nomadic hunter gatherers, where they would settle and move according to a temporary favorable environment. Studies of hunter gatherers in recent centuries have shown that such people lived in what is termed an ‘egalitarian’ form of social organization. ‘Egalitarian’ implies nothing more than that every member of the group is equally responsible for obtaining food, because otherwise there will simply not be enough for everyone. Hence there will be no ‘social classes’ of any significance in such a small society. Even the one regarded as ‘generally more or most responsible’ looks and lives exactly the same way as every one else, simply because they cannot afford to be or look like ‘more’ than another.

Such societies are typically very limited in their ‘cultural products’, because they moved a lot and their only means of transport was their back.

To put it extremely simplistically there existed two basic types of human societies: nomadic hunter gatherers and sedentary farmers. It is quite relevant to make that distinction because all the current societies that are regarded as ‘more advanced’ originated from sedentary farmer societies. So the ‘step’ from the hunter gatherer type of society to sedentary farmers appears to be the decisive ‘step’ in the course of Human history. The history of Farming is said to have started 10 000 years ago - thus marking the beginning of 'Human civilization'.

Let’s look at this point then.

What changes had occurred as a result of humans becoming sedentary farmers?

What generally happens is the following: at one point on the band / tribe will find a vegetable that it can cultivate in a controlled area of soil, which will cause the available food resources to increase. Everywhere where the circumstances have allowed for it man has discovered that he could manipulate certain plants to become suitable for cultivation. A direct consequence of a heightened food production is that the population will be able to grow and a situation will emerge in which some are discharged of their food producing duties. A new ‘class’ is able to emerge. In all societies where farming occurred, hierarchy and social stratification have resulted from it. It seems to be part of the Human program.

Simplistically, inventions such as ‘writing’, ‘the wheel’ and ‘metallurgy’ could only arise in societies where such a thing as ‘free time’ existed, allowing for (some) humans to ‘explore reality’ and to ‘play around’ as part of a new ‘specialized activity’ pertaining to a ‘specialized class’. Thus, farming allowed for heightened food production, which led to population increases, which in turn led to a class emerging that is able to completely be free from food related duties.

Thus agriculture layed the foundation for modern society, in which many are able to never in their lives have to be concerned with food-production. In terms of practical living, farmer-societies would develop a higher level of effectiveness than hunter gatherers. So then why didn’t everyone on earth become farmers?

For farming to really be worth the trouble one needed two things: an effective vegetable and a big mammal to assist with muscle power.

There exist round about 200 000 wild plant species on earth (including non-edible ones, such as trees). Of those 200 000 wild plant species only a few hundreds had been successfully domesticated and of those hundreds only a few dozen are used in today’s world for world-wide production. What does that imply? It means that Human societies did not necessarily have access to effective vegetables for domestication and food production. Within that, bear in mind that none of the vegetables we eat today existed as such in nature: they were genetically modified through a long processes of domestication thousands of years ago. That no significant new plants have ever been domesticated in modern times, suggests that humans did explore all available possibilities already in ancient times. That gives us a pretty sober picture as to the apparent ‘abundance’ of the earths ‘natural resources’.

The big mammals that were used could be seen as the first ‘machines’, with the sole difference that this ‘machine’ wasn’t ‘invented’ and build by the human, but simply existed and walked around in humans natural environment. All Humans had to do was to capture the thing. Though such mammals weren’t readily available anywhere. In fact, very few mammals have ever been available that allowed for effective domestication. (To establish a clear definition, Domestication = an animal bred in captivity, with controlled feeding and breeding, as opposed to ‘taming’ which is capturing an animal born in the wild)

Having a big domesticated mammal constituted quite a big ‘advantage’ because in addition of it offering superior muscle power, it also was a source of fertilizer, a means of transport, a source of meat and some could also produce milk. Mammals were especially utilized to pull plows which allowed for an exponential increase in the surface that could be sown, instead of having to put the grains in the soil manually.

Now, amongst the 148 big herbivorous mammals, only 14 ever proved to be effective for domestication.
- To begin with, one must be able to feed the animal (consider that the biggest percentage of all the grains in the world today are being used as food for cattle).
- The animal must have a fast enough growth rate.
- It must be willing to mate in captivity (which many mammals don’t ever).
- The animal must have a genetic disposition. For instance, while horses had been successfully domesticated in Eurasia, African zebra’s were – and are still today – impossible to domesticate. The animal simply does not submit to the Human. And this goes for all the big mammals of the African continent, such as rhinos, hippos, buffaloes, elands… etc.

Much research, money and effort has been directed towards increasing the amount of domesticated species in modern times – it has virtually amounted to nothing. This suggests pre-programmed conditions in nature, leading to outflows of inequality.

From that perspective different people on different continents simply did not have an equal startingpoint: certain environments allowed for more possibilities than others, either offering the Human ‘many opportunities’ or either limiting him to an extreme degree.

For instance, after the time Humans firs set foot on the Australian continent some 10 000’s of years ago, all big mammals that existed there, went extinct. The same happened in Native America: by the time of the arrival of humans, all big mammals – except for the llama and the closely related alpaca – were either hunted to extinction or perished through the climate shift.

With everything discussed so far, a pattern has now emerged. South America had just one domesticable specie, while North America, Australia, and Sub-Saharan Africa had none. In contrast the remaining 13 mammal species all existed on the Eurasian continent (including North Africa), because the natural environments there were more supportive of those species. Merely by determining the spread of these animals, the course of history already became predictable.

Obviously once a particular technique of food production had been found, that method was then able to spread to other peoples/societies – crops and animals could be used outside of the area where the method was first ‘discovered’. Though here again the environments played a decisive role.

If one look at the size and the orientation of the big landmasses of the earth, one will notice that there are differences. For instance the American and the African continents have a smaller surface than Eurasia. If we then look at the orientation of the landmasses we see that America and Africa both have a vertical orientation on the map. The vertical distance between the two remotest points of the continent is called the ‘north-south axis’. Eurasia has a very broad horizontal orientation, which is termed a ‘west-east axis’.

Why is this relevant? It has to do with the climate differences on the different latitudes of the Earth, such as the Equator. These latitudes run horizontally across the globe – on maps this is depicted as horizontal strokes. This implies that on a landmass with a large horizontal axis, the longest distance of that landmass will find itself laying entirely within one latitude or climate. Hence Plants and Animals that are able to live on one area within one latitude, will most likely be able to live in other areas within that same latitude.

However with Africa and America – because of the vertical orientations – the landmasses are more ‘divided’ by different latitudes. One merely need to consider the desert on the equator in Africa, nearly ‘cutting off’ the upper and the lower halfs of the continent from each other. Thus different latitudes will ‘cut up’ the continent, making transfer of Animals and Plants along a vertical axis more difficult. Let’s illustrate this with a practical example: for instance, while the llama existed as a domesticated animal in South America – and while a type of wheel had been invented in Mexico – the two never met. As a consequence of this, the wheel never got any practical application other than being used for small toys. The two area’s were ‘cut off’ from each other through the climate barrier of Central America.

Another point is that one cannot randomly move a Plant from one location on the globe to another. For instance, plants have pre-programmed time-cycles. If one moves a plant with a particular time-cycle from one area on the globe to another area where the days are shorter, the plant will not be able to survive. Similarly, Animals that have become resistant to the germs that live in one particular climate, will become sick in a new climate with new germs. So Animals and plants are bound to their climatic environments, limiting their ‘free movement’.

So from that perspective the Eurasian continent has had the ‘most favorable’ conditions, allowing for the widest and fastest spread of domesticated Animals and Plant-crops. On top of that Eurasia has been the continent with the most available domesticable big mammals in fact. Thus by its very conditions, the Eurasian continent was more supportive of the Human.

Let’s now finally turn to the subject of Germs.

Why would Germs be so important?

When the Spanish conquerors invaded Native America, they had many points that ‘helped’ them in having a certain advantage over the Native people: they possessed fire-arms, were mounted on horses, were protected by metal armors and had metal swords, though they were not in great number. The Spanish killed, conquered and converted many of the natives – but the majority was in fact killed by Germs which the Europeans had brought from overseas. So the cause of the near extinction of the Native Americans was not due to the Conquerors, but the Viruses. So who really conquered America?

Though, where did these germs come from and why didn’t the Native American Germs kill the Spanish instead?

It seems the Europeans got their Germs from their mammals.

In the process of living together with their Animals, farmers took over their Germs and overtime they build a resistance towards these Germs. Amongst the diseases that have been traced to cattle-germs are: the measles, smallpox and tuberculosis.

A second origin of new diseases was the growth of populations in itself due to sedentary living. Because what happens with sedentary living: groups of people start living in their own sewage, causing many bacteria to infiltrate the drinking water. Thus the bigger the populations, the more Germs. Cities typically have had to deal with epidemics. The building of underground sewage systems was the first point that allowed to really break the pattern. And only till the beginning of the 20 th century did European cities become self-sustaining in terms of their populations, whereas before a constant inflow of healthy farmers from the outside was required to compensate for deaths due to crowd diseases.

Another point that has benefited the Germs in Eurasia was the trading routes. Since they were build in Roman times, a more easy transfer to the different parts of the continent became possible. So now the populations of North Africa, Europe and Asia became one large breeding ground for microbes.

Obviously none of these points were ‘intended’ or even understood.

Thus we could push the point even further and ask whether it is really the peoples of Modern civilization that ended up dominating the globe at all. From a certain perspective it is the germs that are dominating the globe. Perhaps that’s why scientists call groups of microbes ‘Microbe-Cultures’ ?

Let’s have a look at how germs operate.

Some will enter the organism and will then start modifying the organism so as to develop what from a human perspective are ‘symptoms’ or ‘side-effects’ of the actual disease. Though from the Germs perspective: this modification of the body is what allows him to spread more effectively.

Some examples.

Influenza, common cold and ‘whooping cough’ microbes induce the human to cough or to sneeze, thereby launching a cloud of microbes towards potentially new hosts.

The cholera bacterium induces massive diarrhea allowing the bacteria to spread through the water supply of which many will drink.

Then there is the rabies virus that on top of getting in the saliva of an infected dog, will drive the dog into a frenzy of biting and thereby spreading the virus.

Other bacteria will induce genital infections to spread through the human act of sex.

From that perspective it becomes difficult to ignore that more advanced species than the Human exist in fact on earth. It is even becoming more and more uncertain whether the human will be able to adapt to the evolution-speed of new emerging diseases. They have been with the human since day one, and while the human’s genetics haven’t changed since the beginning, the germs have been mutating incessantly.

So – within establishing why The Western world has ended up having such an advantage over other continents and peoples, we have found that Human beings have had very little say in their particular destinies. There has in other words been no real directiveness from the Human within his own history, because if one really look at it – as soon as certain conditions were in place the human would start acting in a predictable pattern. At all times the human has been directed by fear, greed and the desire for power. Nothing ‘revolutionary’ has ever happened other than the human acting out his program, which has resulted in the world we see today.

So why have Human beings never applied common sense to their reality?

For instance, with the technology, the resources, the producing-capacity and the knowledge that exists today, one could easily end things like starvation and poverty forever – allowing for every human on earth to live a dignified life from Birth to Death. That would be common sense, because then there would be no more unnecessary suffering through things like war, exploitation and other behaviors that are based on inequality.

Remember that ultimately, the ‘position’, ‘status’ and ‘power’ one currently hold in this reality is a result of conditions that existed on earth 10 000 years ago – and that it has very little to do with one’s individual capacity. It was instead pre-programmed through the unequal conditions of the earth. This implies that equality should be considered, because otherwise humanity will eternally remain a slave of the past. There is no intrinsic reason why Humans should keep ‘following’ the pre-programmed path of inequality that has been set out since the beginning. Therefore all the suffering that is occurring as a result of it – is completely unnecessary and it can actually be ended. It only requires the will to do so and with the possibilities that are currently available, humanity has really no more excuse.

It’s time to stop.