Tuesday, March 6, 2012

My initial experiences towards Self-Forgiveness

When I first got introduced to Self-Forgiveness – my initial experience towards it was a question mark: what is this?

Yet I could see there was no harm in doing it and the initial Desteni videos were very insisting on it. At that point I remember I was again in a position where I had suffered ‘shipwreck’, metaphorically speaking. My perspectives on reality had again proven to not be valid and I was faced with having to let them go - I felt I could trust nothing and I had to make a decision.

I experienced Self-forgiveness as the last straw – compelling, yet very daunting.

So, eventually I jumped and started my Self-Forgiveness process. I understood that this was not something I would be able ‘fit’ into anything I had done previously. It was literally the unknown.

My question-mark became an exclamation-mark, after I had pushed myself to apply the breathing that was suggested – and together with that speak self-forgiveness after every in-breath. This I was able to do while I was alone at home. I had the whole house to myself while my parents and sisters where either to work or at school. It is during this time that I had to myself alone that I realized – through speaking self-forgiveness out loud - that it really was the solution.

I started applying self-forgiveness on all sorts of thoughts, basically on anything that would come up in my mind – and I would walk around the house, speaking self-forgiveness non-stop. I remember at one point speaking self-forgiveness about blame – where I realized I could no longer continue to blame. After I had dug into this point with Self-Forgiveness – I suddenly said with anger: “Het is gedaan!” Which was me saying that I am no longer accepting and allowing myself to continue existing in blame and that I am taking responsibility for myself. These words had come up inside me and I had spoken them with fierce anger – I was really done with this; I had had enough!

When this was realized – I became very dedicated within my application of self-forgiveness. I really wanted to get all the shit out of me. Every day I started facing new aspects of me that had to be forgiven in order for me to be able to stop them. Within this I faced a lot of emotions like suppressed anger and sadness. Yet what would happen with self-forgiveness is that I would bring the point ‘here’ as me and I would unconditionally forgive it until I was clear within myself and the emotion was no more. This was a powerful realization: I could end my own suffering.

Hence I would recommend self-forgiveness to anyone who within themselves know that who and what they are currently is not sustainable, as the emotions, turmoil and hopelessness they experience. Let me tell you, there is no way out of this. The only way to stop this is through self-forgiveness: you must take responsibility for you.

I can certainly say that I have changed through self-forgiveness – I am no longer a walking time-bomb ready to explode at any given instant when something or someone would trigger a point within me. I stopped my patterns of drinking alcohol, smoking and masturbating to suppress my anger – I stopped using music and movies to wallow in self-pity, I stopped taking advantage of my parents, stopped existing in dreamland in my mind mainly, stopped abusing art as a way to get attention, I have let go of my vain hopes and wishes of becoming a famous writer, I stopped limiting myself according to what I perceive I’m able to do: hence I pushed myself to become a sales-man – and through that I could let go of my morality issues around money.

What I see I would have done had I not taken the opportunity to apply self-forgiveness – I would probably have persisted in my desire to become famous through writing and because of that ended up in a menial job with not much income, continuing drinking alcohol – repeating the pattern of not valuing myself and because my dream would not work out, and as I was unable to have any effective relationships, I would most likely have ended up committing suicide.

So, this was my story on how self-responsibility through self-forgiveness became my saving Grace.


Gabriël Zamora Moreno

Sunday, February 19, 2012

My Experience with building Orgone Devices

Back in 2007 when I was following the love and light path, I got curious about orgone energy and the orgone devices that people were creating around the world.

Leila found a video online about how to make it and I decided I would collect the materials and start making orgone devices. I believed this would assist me greatly in ‘heightening my vibration’ to a more ‘positive frequency’.

Photography by Michèle R.

Hence I went out of my way to research where I could find the different materials (Quartz Kristals, large amounts of tiny Metal scrap parts, and resin). I was very much satisfied when after some time finally having collected all my ingredients.

I took a lot of pleasure in building the orgone ‘pyramids’ as such, because I enjoyed the physical process of placing the Kristals specific inside the resin filled with metal scraps – to then let the whole harden over time. I would then take the hardened resin shape out of it’s form and there I would have my orgone device…

So, from that perspective it was simply an opportunity to have some fun and play around with materials.

Photography by Michèle R.

However, at that time I perceived this would help in bring about a great change within myself and my environment. The principle of the orgone device was that it would absorb all the ‘negative energy’ in its environment and transform this into ‘positive energy’.

What I currently understand, since I’ve walked the process of applying self-forgiveness for some years now and within that I have been taking responsibility for myself and my world – is that it is not possible to change myself or my world by using orgone devices. In a way the belief-system around these devices, is not different than the solution given by Christianity, namely that “Jesus died for all my sins and therefore I can abuse all I want because I am eternally cleansed and also I don’t need to take any self-responsibility for anything I’ve done and I’m simply eternally absolved…” as with the orgone device, it will simply take out all the ‘bad’ and magically replace it with ‘good’, without you having to put in any work into it or without you being in any way accountable. This also shows how spirituality is merely presenting the same formulas that were already presented by Christianity – it’s the same deception.

How is it deception?

Because in Christianity just as with the orgone devices, self-responsibility is ignored – as something/someone outside of you is magically going to absolve and cleanse you.

These methods have proven throughout history to be worthless because they have not resulted in any human being being able to change himself as they don’t provide any tools that assist with self-understanding and self-honesty. If you don’t understand how you have created the mess that you are currently experiencing, then how will you not end up creating the same shit again? It is obvious when looking at history that human beings have made no progress in terms of self-honesty and self-understanding, in any way whatsoever, as can be seen by the violence and bloodshed that is still dominant in today’s world.

Therefore the only way to stop this is by actually taking self-responsibility, through written out and loud-spoken self-forgiveness through which you get to understand what it is you are doing and how you are doing it – so that you can then STOP your patterns of abuse, because you have now seen how it works, and you can make a decision about what you will no longer accept and allow.

To then create a CHANGE in this world that is permanent, you need to educate those around you as to what is self-honesty, and how one can take self-responsibility through self-forgiveness.

Christianity and all its spiritualist offshoots are actually promoting IRRESPONSIBILITY, as they simply refuse to acknowledge the point that self is always responsible – insisting that outside forces are your ‘saving grace’.

With Self-forgiveness you have to become your own ‘saving grace’- because through self-forgiveness you start to look at all the aspects of yourself that are not in alignment with what is best for all life – and you start a process of re-scripting yourself into a being that is trustworthy and that stands for what is best for all – thus becoming your own creator. The message of Jesus ‘Do unto your neighbor as you would like them unto you’ lived practically.

See the Destonian vlogs and read our Blogs to see how we change ourselves for real – we are proof that ‘Human Nature’ is just an excuse and that every single person is able to do this.

This is not a matter of skill, but a matter of Will.

Do you have the Will?


Gabriel Zamora Moreno

Sunday, February 5, 2012

How I was able to hear the Desteni message

There are a couple of aspects as to why I was able to hear the Desteni message. One of them is that shortly before finding Desteni I had become very focused on and obsessed with spirituality, because I had a problem… the problem was that I was experiencing physical pain, and I wanted to use meditations, sound frequency, self-hypnosis and similar techniques to manipulate my body so that I would feel better.

Whenever I would do these things, it would make the situation worse.

I would be in more pain and the situation wasn’t better at all. So, I was getting pretty desperate… and it was clear to me that what I was doing was on a level that a doctor would not be able to help me, because they’re not going to be interested in self-hypnosis and creative visualization and how that works or how you program your body with that bullshit.

And - I felt pretty alone in this, and I was thinking that I must be the only person in the world who is dealing with this. I was in other words under the impression that “I’m fucked”.

If we look at Desteni, what is the core message? It’s self-forgiveness. Thus the message I was given is that if I want to ‘alleviate my situation’, I will have to take self-responsibility – the only way out is self-responsibility.

So, when I tried self-forgiveness for myself, and when taking it seriously, I found it to be directly effective and it did also assist me. I had actually direct physical feedback of the effectiveness of self-forgiveness. Whenever I would be working with a point, there would be a self-release and a there would be a physical release, and I was able to work through the pains I was experiencing.

So, that’s one aspect.

Another aspect is the common sense aspect, of why I was able to hear the Desteni message. Because, when I was busy with the “love and light”, the meditations and the ascension, I was also a believer in 2012… believing that some beings are going to ascend and that’s just how it’s going to be, and there was one particular interview done by Jack, who is one of the beings who spoke through the portal, and he explained in a very straightforward manner that basically: 2012 is not going to happen. And that it is in essence greed, because in the projection of ascension the idea is that some will be ‘saved’ and they will ascend, and then those who have ascended will just wait for the rest who remain suffering on earth. And he made it clear how massive separation that is and total self-interest, and within myself… I could not argue with that. I saw that so clearly, how ascension was actually evil.

So, from that point of not being able to argue with that, I simplistically developed respect towards the points that Desteni was bringing forward… and I started to investigate more and more.

In essence, what made me realize that Desteni was for real is when I would apply self-forgiveness – this was in a period when I had a lot of time to myself, which I was fortunate to have, I realize that – I had a lot of time to apply self-forgiveness. I was all alone, and I could speak self-forgiveness out loud, unhindered, and I could really check this thing out, you know…

I could really check it out – and I did. And I found for myself through the application of self-forgiveness that it worked. There was immediate effect and feedback. I was basically through self-forgiveness discovering what self-expression is, because I have never in my Life (that I am aware of) discovered self-expression, which did open up through self-forgiveness. And I found it quite magnificent, and I decided that – fuck – I’m going to stick with this…

These are just a couple of points, a couple of perspectives on what I was experiencing at that time and what were the reasons why I was able to hear the Desteni message, why it made sense to me – and why I got so interested.

For more information on Desteni and how to change yourself, visit: http://desteni.org and http://desteniiprocess.com



Friday, January 27, 2012

Ascension 2012 will end really Bad

So, I’m writing this blog – because as the news is showing events in the world are only escalating and instead of people waking up and realizing there is intervention needed, more and more beings are turning towards prepackaged forms of delusion based on pretty pictures and nice words.

With Iran now being placed under more pressure internationally through the trade blockage that has been agreed on in Europe – it is clear that the rhetoric and threats that had been used, are now reaching a stage where world war starts to become a likely outcome.

What the media is creating within this is an experience where everyone is merely feeling like an ‘observer’ to these events instead of a participant who is contributing to the creation of this total mess.

From the movie Event Horizon - the crew took out their own eyes because "they didn't need them anymore where they are going"

A dangerous element within this all is that amongst the elite there are still those who follow belief systems according to which they will ascend to a higher realm and not be affected by whatever happens on the physical earth.

This sounds like Babylonian Mayhem.

Much of the ascension movement relies on the belief that cataclysmic events are to come at the crossroads of the ascension-leap – so they perceive that escalation towards world war is proving that they are right. What they fail to see is that every period in time there have been groups who claimed a cataclysmic event and who would use any event in the world as confirmation for their predictions.

So, don’t be stupid within wanting to do it again, just because you think this time you’ll be right.

I suggest – stop.

What you know is that you are now here on earth – that you can trust.
What you cannot trust is a belief that has been formed through thinking based on energy in the mind – which means: based on fear and desire.

Be here in every Breath and start birthing yourself as a physical being, out of your mind – to start seeing reality without distortions.

As you can see this world is moving into yet another cycle of useless violence – no different than any of the previous times. Has anything changed? Has anything been realized? Is this the fate of Humanity and of your children – to just keep repeating cycles of abuse and suffering?
I propose we break the cycle – though that will take real effort and dedication.

No-one will do this for you – so if you have apparently ‘no time’ – then you will face the consequence of that.

Obviously all previous generations have failed in bringing about a change. Will you be the next failure? Or do you say: I no longer accept and allow this and will make it my life-long commitment to see to it that a better world be created where all Life is treated Equal and where children can be born to lead a life without fear?

Join Desteni – investigate Equal Money – it’s time to start working together and not let fear dictate the outcome. The answer is Here.


Gabriël Zamora Moreno

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

December 21, 2012 will be the result of inconsideration

Let’s look at the process of imagination and what happens when one participate in one’s imagination in the mind. We agree that spirituality is a process of imagination. Many mediation and visualization techniques explicitly ask that one use one’s imagination to impulse oneself with ‘peacefulness’ and ‘bliss’.

Only those who have sufficiently elevated themselves into a state of ‘love’ and ‘positivity’ will be qualified to ascend when the date of December 21, 2012 arrives.

The problem with imagination is that when one is in one’s mind imagining something – one lose awareness of what is here in the physical. Meaning: one create a separate mind dimension of experience where the actual world in which one physically sit and breathe – is not included.

Therefore, the more one participate in imagination – the more separation one create with physical reality. So, spiritual ascension is in fact spiritual separation. Because you separate yourself from reality in your ‘spirit’.

Now, every moment is an opportunity that one can use to either be here aware of oneself breathing – or that one can waste by participating in the mind. Because you will note that whenever you are busy thinking – the world continues in that moment without you – you just excluded yourself from reality. Therefore, the way to be here and have a say in reality, is to be self-present here in every breath and direct yourself in and as the physical.

The 2012 ascension movement is geared towards making a better world happen. It projects a bright future where there is no more suffering, for those who dedicate themselves to the cause of the ‘spirit’.

What is not understood within this is how physical reality is created on the most basic level.

When you are here and aware of your breathing – you can make decisions that are based on what you observe in your world, your assessment of the situation will be ‘sharp’. If you are however diverted in your mind and doing something mechanically while being busy thinking about what you want to do tomorrow – most likely you will fuck up whatever it is you are doing, because you are not aware of yourself here in the physical and of your environment, you are not giving any care and attention to the task you are busy with. Similarly, if you insist on experiencing bliss through your imagination as much as possible, despite of what you can observe is happening in the world around you with half your brethren existing in poverty and one billion not even having enough food to feed themselves properly – how do you think that will accumulate?

Therefore you cannot create a better world, when you are not HERE fully participating in the physical – but instead are running in your mind.

Similarly December 2012 will be nothing more than the accumulation of all the breaths that were missed by humanity leading up to that date. It will be the accumulation of humanity’s inconsideration. If you want to change the future - best to stop imagination and start a process of bringing yourself back in the physical and start seeing what is really happening.

Join Desteni and learn how to disengage from addictive mind patterns and instead start living Here.

Gabriel Zamora Moreno