There are a couple of aspects as to why I was able to hear the Desteni message. One of them is that shortly before finding Desteni I had become very focused on and obsessed with spirituality, because I had a problem… the problem was that I was experiencing physical pain, and I wanted to use meditations, sound frequency, self-hypnosis and similar techniques to manipulate my body so that I would feel better.
Whenever I would do these things, it would make the situation worse.
I would be in more pain and the situation wasn’t better at all. So, I was getting pretty desperate… and it was clear to me that what I was doing was on a level that a doctor would not be able to help me, because they’re not going to be interested in self-hypnosis and creative visualization and how that works or how you program your body with that bullshit.
And - I felt pretty alone in this, and I was thinking that I must be the only person in the world who is dealing with this. I was in other words under the impression that “I’m fucked”.
If we look at Desteni, what is the core message? It’s self-forgiveness. Thus the message I was given is that if I want to ‘alleviate my situation’, I will have to take self-responsibility – the only way out is self-responsibility.
So, when I tried self-forgiveness for myself, and when taking it seriously, I found it to be directly effective and it did also assist me. I had actually direct physical feedback of the effectiveness of self-forgiveness. Whenever I would be working with a point, there would be a self-release and a there would be a physical release, and I was able to work through the pains I was experiencing.
So, that’s one aspect.
Another aspect is the common sense aspect, of why I was able to hear the Desteni message. Because, when I was busy with the “love and light”, the meditations and the ascension, I was also a believer in 2012… believing that some beings are going to ascend and that’s just how it’s going to be, and there was one particular interview done by Jack, who is one of the beings who spoke through the portal, and he explained in a very straightforward manner that basically: 2012 is not going to happen. And that it is in essence greed, because in the projection of ascension the idea is that some will be ‘saved’ and they will ascend, and then those who have ascended will just wait for the rest who remain suffering on earth. And he made it clear how massive separation that is and total self-interest, and within myself… I could not argue with that. I saw that so clearly, how ascension was actually evil.
So, from that point of not being able to argue with that, I simplistically developed respect towards the points that Desteni was bringing forward… and I started to investigate more and more.
In essence, what made me realize that Desteni was for real is when I would apply self-forgiveness – this was in a period when I had a lot of time to myself, which I was fortunate to have, I realize that – I had a lot of time to apply self-forgiveness. I was all alone, and I could speak self-forgiveness out loud, unhindered, and I could really check this thing out, you know…
I could really check it out – and I did. And I found for myself through the application of self-forgiveness that it worked. There was immediate effect and feedback. I was basically through self-forgiveness discovering what self-expression is, because I have never in my Life (that I am aware of) discovered self-expression, which did open up through self-forgiveness. And I found it quite magnificent, and I decided that – fuck – I’m going to stick with this…
These are just a couple of points, a couple of perspectives on what I was experiencing at that time and what were the reasons why I was able to hear the Desteni message, why it made sense to me – and why I got so interested.
For more information on Desteni and how to change yourself, visit: http://desteni.org and http://desteniiprocess.com